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little things ♡

Monday, December 3131.12.12

this is the last day of 2012.

to be honest, I didn't like this year at all.

but, i'm thankful,

because i'm safe and healthy.

because i have my family.

because i have my best friends.

because i learnt guitar.

because i went to ktv.

because i tried ice skating.
because i had work attachment.

because i have a new phone.

because i received a laptop.

because i did my best.

because i found new hope.

because i finally walked away.

because i tried to be strong.

because i am still growing up, and will still be.

Monday, September 33.9.12

Dreams are meant to be realised.
Hopes are meant to be fulfilled.
Promises are meant to be kept.
But if they aren't, just smile and move on.
Cause there's gotta be something about your life that's still worth living.
And someone that is still worth a smile on your face. (:

"keep holding on"

You are the best thing that's ever been mine.

Sunday, May 2020.5.12

I might not have a lot, but I have enough.

Thank you for making me feel special.

When I ever feel down again, I would remember all of you.

Taking one away from six still gives me five best friends that I need to and want to cherish.

Which gives me more than what I can ever thank for in my life.

For you, I would stay happy no matter what.

Right & Wrong

Friday, May 1818.5.12

I don't know if this is good, but I'm at home now.

Apparently, I'm down with flu, slight cough, impending fever yesterday.

Today it seems to have gotten better.

But I really don't feel like doing anything even though I have loads to do.

Tomorrow's gonna be a long day of fun. (:

But for that to happen I have to prepare today first. My presents.

And I still owe someone a video of some sort.

Someone give me motivation. Gahhhh.

i wanna be deeply loved, even just for a night.

Saturday, May 1212.5.12

Smile and stay strong, keep holding on.

Every day. (:

Haiz.

So many birthdays it's making my head spin.

Sometimes I don't really know why I'm doing all this.

But it's okay. In the end it sorta makes me happy too.

The fact that people feel touched, happy, surprised.

That makes my day i guess (:

怕我没什么能够给你爱你也需要很大的勇气 ♥

12.5.12

It's been so long.

2012's here.
It's a really different year.
In a different class, with different people, and learning different things.
More things to balance, more feelings to handle.
I'm back in this environment whereby everyone seems unfamiliar and sometimes I'm just all alone.
Even though I know so many people. Even though I had my best friend.
Maybe I made the wrong choice again, but I guess I have to continue on this road too.
Put on a smile and persevere on, even if it's on my own.
Small joys are gonna keep me happy. (:
The little things in life. I'm gonna make every one of them count <3

Monday, December 2626.12.11

the things that really stay.

wednesday, december 21.

sunday, december 25.

{ roch | sq | feli | sh | mh }.

it's that day with those friends, and you think to yourself with a smile on your face:

it's not about the things we do, it's because we are back together that's why the day was amazing.

hearing the same lines, looking at the same faces, feeling the same atmosphere.

and knowing that this will stay for a while.

that essentially, nothing much has changed.

and this beautiful feeling will go on.

and because i've got them, i'm special.

because i'm only me when i'm with them.

and because i know it will always be okay.

on a sidenote, alvin and the chipmunks's awesome.

and even though i suck at bowling, it's amazing too.

and because i made them smile, i smiled too.

to have them by my side for this christmas, it's great enough.

and as much as i'd like to say 'friends forever', i know it's not a definite.

but i know that even if one day if we stop being friends anymore, these memories will never be forgotten.

and i'll always remember the beauty in all the moments we shared.

Monday, December 1212.12.11

Hello my (non-existent) readers ! :D

my blog is totally dormant. (yes, like a volcano)
i think i'm just too lazy, even though i love writing (:
but i love reading more.
wattpad stories in particular!
shall do some advertisement :x

The Replacement Girlfriend <3
Waist-Deep In Walmart :D
Their Paid Girl (Y)
Playing The Field (:

:p
haven't been to the library for so long sia.
should go but no time :/
maybe after hanoi trip !
so many things happen lately !
i got my streaming results,
i bought my books and went back to school for choir,
i worked and got my pay,
i explored so many places (not really actually D:),
i bought so much art stuff,
i did homework and am about to finish,
i watched you are the apple of my eye and breaking dawn (evil grin :D),
and so on !
won't write much to catch up with my lack of posts, but yeah, that's basically what happened i suppose in no particular order (:

shall write again when i feel like it xD
bye world <3

going for hanoi trip on tuesday ! excited (:

Sunday, October 99.10.11

been so long since i've done this.

one for friends, the other for family.

Family first.

To me, family doesn't only include my immediate family. Family is whom you are close to by heart and by blood. This is gonna be to the family that was once close to my heart, or has always been and will continue being.

immediatefamily:

My dearest mum and dad, no matter how much I often seem to be moody and rebellious, I love you guys. For always being there for me, for tolerating all sides of me, for knowing me better than many people, for loving me no matter what, for always saving me from trouble, for taking care of me for so long. For so much more, that could not be put into words. As cliched as this might sound, there wouldn't be me without you. And no matter how much I always seem to complain about my life, I'm thankful for it, for you giving it to me. I will promise to become better for you and most importantly for myself. I will try to be mature again and not be stubborn and childish anymore and when I grow up, I would make sure I can take care of you just as well and even better. The two people who have always been there from the very start of my life and accompanying through my childhood and and my journey to the future as I grow up, raising me up to who I am today, you will always matter the most to me. Iloveyou ! <3

maternalside:

My amazing extended family, I treasure every single second of the moments that we have ever had together, and will still continue to have. Thankyou, my dear cousins, for being there to care for me and protect me, making up for the absence of siblings by my side because I have you guys. Especially the girl in dhs and barely one year older than me, you are practically my sister and we both know that. Thankyou for all the memories we shared, and will still continue to share. No matter what we grow up to be we will always be close like this. Thankyou too, to my aunts and uncles, my grandparents, for always showering me with care and concern and always wanting the best for me. Every moment spent with you guys felt natural and amazing. I really love you guys. The warmth that I feel when I'm with you guys makes everything right. You matter so much to me. Iloveyou ! <3

fraternalside:

my awesome extended family, I missed how we were so much better. Do you still remember the times where the adults play mahjong, and the kids play neopets ? Do you still remember how we stayed at either of the two houses until late midnight, and all the kids slumped on the table falling asleep ? Do you still remember the many, many songs during those times that make me want to cry whenever I hear them again now because I really miss this so much ? Incredible tales, Macromedia Flash, Chinese Idioms, everything seemed to remind me of all we ever had. I just wish the chalet would happen and somehow we would be close again, even if it's in a different way. I miss you guys really, and I don't know how you feel about a little girl like me here, but I love you guys, more than you could ever imagine. You matter to me more than your imagination could ever bring you. Iloveyou.

really, don't know how much sentimental this can get, but i love all of you guys. You mean the world to me.

9.10.11

hiatus off ! (:

eoys only left with math, bio spa, and acc :D

haiz, time passes so fast.

during this time, so many things have happened.

including my birthday, which was possibly one of the best <3

and many many birthdays of other people too,

like jianing, valerie&vanessa, olenka, and my dear cousin peishan(:

and happy events like teachers' day and children's day have passed too.

i know i'm not a kid anymore which is pretty sad (i'm just somewhere in between)

i'm looking forward to days officially after eoy.

idk what exactly might happen, but i suppose hopes shouldn't be gotten too high cause they might end up getting smashed. hard.

but i'm still happy now though. (:

gonna write dedications and some other stuff in another post.

so this ends here. ciao ! (:

Monday, August 2929.8.11

think i'll be off for a longlong hiatus until maybe eoy ends.

just saying, since i don't think anyone reads anyway.

Wednesday, August 1010.8.11

for singapore, my homeland <3

brings back memories from primary school i guess.

performances like will you, shine on me, my island home, we will get there etc.

standing in the parade square singing national anthem, school song, my people my home, saying the pledge, and reciting recollections by heart in the rain once.

rehearsing recollections in the school hall with ms fong leading days before the celebration.

it's incredible.

honestly, i miss the place where it's closest to home, closest to my heart.

where it gave me the best memories ever.

people say you have the most unforgettable and beautiful memories in secondary school but i beg to differ.

we all wished for a meetoh secondary school where we could still be together.

now that we are separated, not all of cares as much anymore.

but i do. if i was given a chance to be back in a class with all of my best friends then, and the people in the rest of the class too, i would take it without hesitation.

because it's where i feel like i belong, more.

okay, enough of this.

happy national day anyway. (:

i love singapore <3

and the awesome national day songs.

Wednesday, July 2727.7.11

just didn't think blogging feels as nice as before.

i know this blog is like dead. :/

but i'm not exactly free.

or in the mood to blog either.

but thanks jac for your tag, and i'll relink you when i can reiyin (:

today's elearning day anyway, so it's been pretty sucky at the beginning due to the lag and stuff.

now no one cares to follow the timetable cause the deadline's extended anyway.

and it's become a better day. :D

still have a lot of things to do though.

so i'll end my post here and go have lunch first.

bye world <3

it must have been my fault things turned out this way.

Sunday, July 33.7.11

25june to 3july : 8 days.

hehe sorry really lazy to blog :x

26 june was normal, except for something.

27 june to 1 july was okay even though we were bombarded with projects, and me being preoccupied by something.

2 july was.. different. special. unreal. cool. weird. meaningful. funny. kinda awesome, kinda fun.

3 july was.. an eye-opener. super tiring. kinda cool. surprising. shocking. and all.

26 june was a rushing hw day la obviously. last day of school. then ry sms-ed me and asked me when my holidays ending, and so hah, that was the not normal part. and he wanted to meet up/visit so, we decided on saturday.

in the end, we went to sean's house together on saturday after my choir.

that was what kept me preoccupied before i knew whether i was even gonna meet up with them.

so, 2 july was dah day.

choir ended, i changed into home clothes and then went to paya lebar mrt to meet him.

i'm earlier :D

when he reached, he called me, and then when he say he saw me, we hung up.

but i kept turning and turning around like a few times before i even saw him.

failed. :x

and so yeah, then we mrt-ed to tampines and talk and stuff otw.

it's pretty obvious that we both changed i guess.

so it doesn't really feel like last time, but it's not awkward too, so it's cool.

went to ljs@tm to eat, then bus-ed to the tropica aka sean's house.

went up, then just talk, about studies and everything.

a little of last time stuff too.

wanted to watch transformers at first, but cannot find seats that won't put your neck into a cast.

so in the end we watched green lantern, even though ry watched before le.

i think this is one of the few times, or maybe my first time i even watched a sci-fi movie. i mean science fiction stuff are really cool, and fascinating, but it never crossed my mind to watch that genre, or maybe it's the people i watch with.

so after hanging out at the house for a while more, then we headed to shaw@century square.

bought the tickets and waited outside for a while since we were a bit early.

randomly talked about last time stuff.

best 15 mins of the whole day.

i don't know why, i liked the past more.

bought popcorn and drinks, then went in eventually.

the critics totally put the whole movie down, but it's not that bad i guess.

not awesome to the max, but quite nice in a way. okay okay.

i like the funny scenes or quotes.

i'm not someone who really, like, know how to rate a movie using professional viewpoint kinda stuff, so yeah.

so after that, they walked me to tampines1 to find my mum/dad, then eventually cause of my mum's persuasion, they hitched a ride back to the condo since ry staying at sean's house.

during the walk to tampines1, it felt like they were walking behind me as if they were bodyguards, lol.

but really, weird.

overall it's okay i guess.

not that okay, but okay.

please, don't ever find my blog and see this ^ & ^. i'll hide from you for the rest of my life.

3 july didn't start off well. but overall it's okay. now i don't have to worry about ever getting lost at chinatown i guess. and i got a coin from the singapore coins and notes museum. cool + awesome max :D it's just a souvenir la, for keepsake. and plus in the end there's some lucky draw thing and i, or my mum, aish it's the same, got 4 complimentary singapore flyer tickets hehehehe. okay not like i'm so crazy about singapore flyer since it's kinda boring, but still cool. so, yeah (:

it sounded like i'm so biased to yesterday. like i gave so much details. but i would still say i liked today better. in a way.

tmr going out w rochele to do hw. awesome. (:

i think out of the people who read my blog, only one people roughly knows who i am talking about in 2 july ;) rys rofl.

quote,from issac&joshua : "when will we see each other again ?"

Saturday, June 2525.6.11

2 weeks..whoa.

holidays coming to an end ._____________.

my cough has of course long recovered.

and my choir practices in holidays have come to an end, with the holidays ):

this two weeks were funfilled.

chiewling's birthday,

the somehow worst yet best class outing,

service learning, (not really fun but oh well)

sungei buloh field trip, (it was better than i thought at least :D)

the combined choir practices,

reading up on some craft stuff,

and some other things i can't really remember.

y'know, usually fun and tired comes together.

so it has been really tiring too.

and i needa chiong the remainder of the homework that's not done too.

so for now, bye <3

and i can't seem to stop letting my mind wander off.;

Saturday, June 1111.6.11

otw of healing ~

oh well, i think i feel awesome now.

i guess i am almost, recovered.

(Y) !

it has been fun yesterday doing the maths prototype.

even though i was really tired.

and i am having fun preparing presents too !

going to hougang mall (again) later to have dinner plus buy stuffs from popular :D

really love holidays. but it seems like it's so short D:

gotta chiong homework before it ends i guess.

hwaiting ! (:

really short post hehe. bye world <3

Thursday, June 99.6.11

1 week hiatus, and i'm back i guess (:

what happened during this one week ?

i drank koi twice.

i did a cover of rolling in the deep which i sounded funny in.

i had ramen at hougang mall.

i read chicken soup for the american idol's soup.

i ate sogurt.

i ate yoshinoya.

i earned a flu and a cough.

i started on homework.

i started on presents.

csi crimecity on facebook is super awesome.

i went to daiso today.

i think i'm going to lose weight cause of my flu and cough.

i don't even eat proper meals sometimes.

my left knee hurts like hell today i don't even know why.

oh well.

that's summing up this week.

seriously, the flu and cough is, (N).

i hate flu/cough.

i would rather get fever cause it usually recovers within a few days and other than headache and maybe feeling hot and cold it really is okay.

but flu/cough, especially cough can haunt you for weeks, and it gives you headaches and sometimes you might even get fever because of it if it gets serious.

so, it sucks.

but so far i think i'm kinda recovering, which is good.

but still, really irritating.

i bet it's the ramen that started off everything.

stupid ramen. i would never eat ramen at hougang mall anymore.

that's one lesson learnt.

started on homework.

elit ws is really taxing.

and considering the fact that i don't understand the book, it really doesn't help.

maths is okay i guess.

presents part, it's really fun.

i'm satisfied with what i have so far.

but i think it's gonna be quite tedious.

and please, if anyone knows where to get rubber bands(those red ones that are commonly used), please tell me ! xoxo.

koi is proven safe alr, so it's really cool.

i love cacao barry okay. <3

oh and talking about chocolate, i miss my milo so much ):

curse flu and cough once again.

i'm going to spam on koi and milo once i recover.

sogurt is awesomee.

but it's so ex ):

oh well.

ate it on sunday @parkway outlet with my cousin.

oh and that reminds me to post the photos.

shall do it later on fb.

sidenote : i love those classic songs that are the must-haves in a karaoke session. those old ones, that everyone knows. :D

bye worldddddddddddd. <3

Thursday, June 22.6.11

thanks for tags <3

anyway, i watched kungfu panda 2 on monday. it's alkdfjgvuribgvasw awesome ! :D

omg, pandas ftw. :D dragon warrior ehehe.

pastamania for lunch before that. 3 cheers for the awesomest chicken ham cheesy crumble :3

shared yigloo with rochele, wild strawberry, blueberry tart, and plain tart <3, but forgot about my loyalty card until i went home and i was like oh crap how did i even forget.

and went to chinatown for the fun of it, and clarke quay.

bought stickys ! (Y).

awesome day.

next day was, idk.

the worst day ever wasn't even enough to sum it up, and i'm not going to talk about it.

wednesday was, normal. ate at nex and then came home.

today was pretty okay, went to nex straight after choir practice to find chiewling and minhui (:

saw meiling too ~ ;D

talked for a while at the platform w ml & cl until mh came, then we went to nex.

thanks to me who haven't had lunch, we went to subway first.

then to library to find clement, and to starbucks to discuss about our project.

apparently we just sat there, and none of us bought anything cause no money .__________.

got most of the things sorted out, and then we went to popular to buy stuffs.

after that wandered around aimlessly around the mall feeling kinda weird for 1h+, then chiewling went home.

ate dinner w minhui @ foodjunction, went to buy egg tarts with her, and durian pancakes (Y), then i went to buy buns as requested by my mum, and home-d.

hopefully tmr's awesome yay. :D

well i hope. bye worlddd. (:

Saturday, May 2828.5.11

13 days :x

well, mye might have been a factor.

lack of motivation to blog is definitely one.

busy reading online stories is one too.

and listening to old songs all day and all night long is one too.

but anyw, i'm back again.

13 days ahaha. taylor swift's favourite number ! (Y)

so, anyw, today was awesome. the previous few days wasn't though, but let's not talk about those.

choir practice was not bad, started on two more new songs today (:

told mr ek i would be going to filmmaking workshop on 1 june, so i won't go for choir practice.

well finally something off my chest. it's like weighing me down cause i don't know who to look for as sub.

went to drink koi again omg crap too addicted :x

bought green milk tea ! :D

and ate roasted chicken sub yayy.

it's june holidays now, and unlike many others i guess, i'm actually super glad.

for one, my cca isn't intensive.

and plus, i hate waking up early for school.

and and, i don't like school life. it totally brings me down.

given an option, i would rot at home instead (:

okay, that didn't sound too optimistic.

whatever. :D

during this june holidays, hopefully i will mug for my eoy.

andd tidy up my room.

have self-discipline lol.

and have many outings.

create awesome memories.

and read many books omg.

yay.

and download many songs :D

okay this is getting reallyyy long.

so it's gonna end here.

bye world <3

oh, and i guess i should update my music player, and change my tagboard and blogskin yeahh. (:

Sunday, May 1515.5.11

okay, i haven't blogged for 16 days.

hm, quite a lot of events these days, don't know where to start.

early birthday party at cousin's place @6may was awesome, way better than what i expected.

looking forward to the chalet and universal studios outing, hope they ain't just making empty promises.

mye is over now. had 2 outings after mye so far i guess.

one with rochele, and one with meiling, chiewling and charlene.

old kallang airport ftw ahaha.

and nex.

sogurt. koi. (Y) :D

KAMPONG kembangan cc :D

badminton is super awesome, but i'm aching all over now cause god knows when was the last time i played. i totally epic-failed through the first half hour cause i suck at it even though i love it :x

but nevermind ! hehe.

should play more to train myself.

then i won't be such a sports idiot.

reminiscing old chinese songs recently.

CPOP FTW OKAY. xD

-zhiduiniyouganjue, fahrenheit&hebe

-lianaipinglv, yvonnehsu&andyhui

-zhizaolangman, sangbyotherpeople like rainieyang&xiaogui <3 cause i don't like the original singers :p

-liangshanboyuzhuliye, garycao&geniechu

-woyouwodeyoung, fahrenheit

and many many more :D

music is awesome. from epop to cpop to kpop to jpop.

of course i love epop and cpop more though.

hehe. no offence to people who love kpop. :D

it's late ! i shall end my post here. bye world, i guess i would see you again :3

Saturday, April 3030.4.11

dedication posts ftw. :D

haha i'm here again..after..20 days ! :X

no time to blog seriously.

but i shall just dedicate something to 4 people.

thanks for being there for me when i know you don't need to and shouldn't be. if it was anyone else, they most prolly would not have done the same. thanks for bearing with me. thanks for always waiting up. thanks for always helping me. thanks for always listening to me. thanks for always caring for me, always showering me with concern. thanks for all the things that you have done. thanks for all the memories you have given me. i truly am so lucky. you guys made everything all better. you gave me the happiest days ever in my present. i feel so stress-free, like i could be myself and not care. you told me i deserved better. you made me feel safe and secure, loved. for once i knew i belonged. there might be ups and downs, but nothing would break us apart yeah. you let me know i could try again. you made me believe once more. you guys are part of me, my life, my soul. i had so many things i do realise, and you are on the top 10 list. you gave me direction, instead of walking around aimlessly everyday not knowing where i belong. you are freaking perfect. and i don't think you would see this anytime soon, but when you see it i guess you would know who you are.

<3, AWESOMZXC

Starstriking;

Sunday, April 1010.4.11

it's been 23 days since i updated :O

partly cause of school, partly cause no motivation to blog.

tag me, and i shall blog friends xD

many many things during these 23 days, can't really remember them very distinctly, so i won't go into details. the worst part of projects flood is gone, but at the same time, mye is coming. really gotta buck up and get good results. oh and common test results suck. i'm not gonna say anything more.

there are days i really feel like slapping myself, and days i would laugh the way home. and a day really can't be judged in any way before it ends. it might be good now, and it might be bad later. it might be bad now, and it might be good later. ultimately, one day that has passed is also in the past. what's right and what's wrong, just let it be gone with the wind. over some time, you learn to not take everything literally. when someone gives you promises, it might be with the desire to fulfill it for you, but in the end it still might not be fulfilled. if it's not, well obviously it's not going to be fulfilled either. so just listen and don't hope for too much. hope for the best, prepare for the worst too. don't let anything get you down. because life's too short to be anything but happy. people who love you are your greatest assets, people you love are your greatest strength. don't ever neglect or forget them. always treat them like treasure.

lol. just random thoughts from these days.

"And I, I like the way, you're such a star, but that's not why I love you"

"It's getting harder to pretend, and I'm not coming back around again"

"So many questions, so much on my mind, so many answers I can't find"

" 'Cause I am 4 real, are you 4 real, I can't help myself, it's the way I feel"

"Goodbye, brown eyes, goodbye, for now, goodbye, sunshine, take care of yourself"

"And you know when push comes to shove, it's gonna take the both of us"

"All those crazy things we did, didn't think about it just went with it"

"And I-I-I don't really care about, if you love me, if you hate me, you can't save me, baby, baby"

"Black star, black star, forever you'll be, a shining star, a shining star, be whatever you can be"

"Stop standing there, standing there, stop acting like you don't care"

"It's been a while, since everyday and everything has felt this right"

"Pretty please, i know it's a drag, wipe your eyes and put up your head"

"All the memories that we're losing, all the time that I spent with you everyday"

♥

Saturday, March 1919.3.11

you're the best thing, that's ever been mine♥

sorry for not updating, this is gonna be a super long post, i promise :D

tuesday, choirpractice, bracesappointment !

choir ended at 11 plus i think, went to nex for lunch, and to the library to borrow books. the library is awesome chio, but kinda difficult to find books. but i still like :D anyw, met up with mum after that, and went to get braces changed :D black&hotpink braces = love ♥. then, went to csm's popular to buy mathematics tutor recommended by misstay, and my cuecards :D ate dinner there before going home (:

wednesday, choircamp : day1 !

reached school around 9, doing homework with friends and listening to music, chatting as well :D denise requested us to run two rounds around the lake, we kinda ran-walk ;P so after that we went to choir room and got into 6 groups for amazing race. was with gwyneth, huiqi, soonwei, liuchang, and bella, with yanhui(&jiamin) as our awesome leader(s) :D first stop was at choir room itself. we completed human knot with two turns, must be the simplest human knot man. went on to canteen, realised we had to go to school hall. resides above two flights of stairs, so yeah. played the forward and backward game, lol don't know what's that called. it's like crossing from one end of a part of the school hall to the other end using papers as "stepping-stones", and there are 4 pieces of papers, one allowing you to pass it both ways, one only towards the end. you have to strategise by passing the papers down or back to get to the end. the rule is you have to keep contact with the paper at all times, or for each time you lose contact with it, you lose one of the papers, which means lesser papers to use to get the other end. hah, quite fun :D

then, while waiting for the rest of the groups to come, we played whacko, blow wind blow and the handkerchief man :D alot of the juniors dk who are the seniors, so it's really hilarious during whacko when they will be like, who's (inserts senior's name) ? then everyone will be like pointing at random people trying to sabotage him, then in the end he will innocently and hesitantly walk to the person and hit him/her, then in the end we will make them do forfeit, like chicken dance and president-style star jump ;D(y) it's really hard on them actually, but well it makes things fun. but some of them seriously always tio, poor things sia, but they should have got to know us better, at the very least, our names xD. handkerchief man was kinda pointless, cause you will always be the next person to put the bottle behind someone, and the cycle will just repeat, but it's still okay :D

when everyone reach, we played double whacko, like that time class picnic outing@pasir ris park :D it's funny when milton, ivan(?) and bella was going in a cycle of being the whackoman :D and listening to people scream, oops, that sounded sadistic :D all in all, fun :D i got to be whackoman once, and me being me, i was like absolutely confused, and then someone shouted jiachen, and i got my revenge, ahahaha ;D played mr wolf game, then lunch-ed. played blind mice until practice started :D practice ended at 5.30.went to nex to eat dinner, banmian hehe, then bought froyo @ glacious (y), mango froyo w oreo and fruity pebbles ! end of the day hee.

thursday, zhiqi\rochele\meihui !

met up w rochele at punggol lrt platform around 9.45, then went to 313 together first to buy goodbye lullaby at hmv :D and omg, the album is so nice. paid for it, sad that there's no more bags, but what can i say, it's like 8 days since the album was out :/ $34 flyyyy, but it's okay..:] chiong-ed to plaza singapura like crazy to watch forever, lucky i made it in time. the theatre was damn epic, only me and another guy, prolly why it's so freezing cold, and seriously, thankgod i brought my jacket. the movie was not bad, i love the editing of the movie and the venue they use, it gives this very dreamy feeling ♥ but then i don't really understand the ending. is it a fragment of her imagination ? but i thought she was cured, and not mental anymore :x there's certain parts of the movie which are kinda funny, but there are some parts it's a little creepy. but all in all, okay.

met up w rochele and zhiqi, and went to pastamania to eat ! mushroom baked rice omg, (y). and then because we have nothing to do, we went to watch movie, again for me. red riding hood ahaha. amanda seyfried lol :D the movie was not bad, except the fact that i was never really able to watch gore. not a teeny bit. amanda seyfried is so pretty :D i thought all along that the grandmother was the wolf, but turns out is her father. the ending was not good like forever, except that i do understand. but it's stupid how peter comes back as a wolf, and then she just smiles. the end. there are certain really hilarious parts of the movie that makes me suspect the genre, like when valerie saw the wolf, and she was like, OMG, you can talk. i think everyone just burst out laughing. we went to buy yigloo after that, and then zhiqi went home. me and rochele went to hougang mall/hougang plaza :D

went to hougang mall first, cause it's still kinda early for dinner. went to cspl to borrow 2 books after a lot of choosing, then went for dinner @astons in hougang plaza's coffee shop :D super nice sia, but seriously damn lot, so i dabao back home and share with my dad hehe. after eating, then we go back to hougang mall again :D top floor there's this playground remember ? the one i went with wanyi and stacia (: so we went there. played on the swing thingy again, then camwhored a little (y) , around 8, we took mrt to home, ends da day !

friday, choircamp : day2 !

went to school 9.30 also. then went to choir room. did some warmups, sang through syf songs, and re-audition. sad sia, i still conditional pass. D: left last chance on wed alr, must jiayou. can't fail ! == went to music room after lunch + more slacking. prize presentation ceremony for amazing race, guess who, inception. dream within a dream lol.

so after that we were dismissed to get to ecp. me, augusta, wilda, yunshi, amelia, and miao squeezed in miao's mum's car to ecp. poor amelia and yunshi, cause amelia had to sit on yunshi's lap to make enough space. x) then when we reached carpark e2, they sms-ed us and said it was at d1 .__. seriously. we walked from e2 to d1 lo. blasted goodbye lullaby's songs on the way, (y) reach then some people just realised it was lynn's birthday today, then we sang happy birthday song to her haha. i gave her her card. then i put down my bag and ate a bit, before running off to the beach. omg♥ took like so many photos of my drawings on the sand, i like :D sang random songs on the beach too :Dplayed until like idk, 6+ to 7 then went back to bbq pit to eat. wings (y) satay (y) stingray (y) . haha, basically the bulk of my dinner. big thankyou to those people who were bbq-ing there, i still feel damn guilty for eating and not being able to help._.

jesslyn's dare was to put her head in the ice for 5 secs. my truth was why i keep falling asleep in choir, like lol. i don't really find it that offensive la. well maybe it's cause of the nights that i stay up to finish my homework cause i always slack ._________. yanhui's truth was what is walter to her. she said it was a good and caring friend, and well, some people just don't seem to believe. seriously, my blog cannot be seen by seniors :x aloysius's was who is the chio-est in the circle, and they didn't know, so they just spin the bottle, then whoever it points to is chio-est lor. not supposed to really mean something la, cause they don't know who to say, so they just spin, then point to me. okay la, they got the name correct, the person wrong though :D no wait, the name correct, surname wrong. yes.

so after this few, denise asked us to go back le, cause so late then some of us going home by public transport, so yeah. then i think they also gonna go home. so end of bbq. :/ and me and yanhui was like, noooo, the fun had just started ! D:took jiamin's dad's car out with yanhui to bus stop, big thankyou too (: yanhui crossed the bridge to opposite bus stop, then i walked straight. she told me to sms her when i reach home haha. i took 43 all the way to punggol interchange cause i lazy alight and transfer bus/mrt :p so i ended up reaching home like, 11pm :o and slept like 1 ? :D cause i was reading change of heart. hah, so end of day bah.

saturday, lastseconddayofholiday D: !

okay, so there's nothing much on saturday okay. rot at home until 5+, went to pasir ris to eat and pick up flowers and leaves. ate at fcx @ downtown east, then walked to pasir ris park to find fallen flowers and leaves. then walked back to outside etp to take the flowers aha. then to white sands cause my mum wants mr. bean. thennnn, home ! the end of the crappy day. talked to jinkai on fb about.. some things.

today ? nothing much. last day of holiday. prolly gonna chiong hw like crazy. bye world !

Sunday, March 1313.3.11

xingfuxianghuaer ! (y)

the chinese reading material is seriously awesome man.

damn touching and meaningful, i finished it in 4 hours :D

i love zhiruo ! she's so awesome.

happiness, is defined by you.
when living in the lap of luxury, and enjoying a life of quality is happiness to you, then you will never be happy without money.
but when living a simple life with a warm and sweet home to be in, and best friends who would always stick with you through everything and anything is happiness to you, then money ain't everything anymore.
you could be struggling to make ends meet, and facing many problems in life, but if you have these much in life- friends and family that you love and love you, making you feel warm and fuzzy inside, isn't it enough ?
happiness are like flowers. different flowers blooms out to have different colours and fragrance. they might be in clusters or just a single flower, and they might be small or big, just like how happiness blooms out in different ways. at times we might not feel happiness but that's not because happiness does not exist, but because its turn to bloom has not come yet.
happiness is like oxygen sometimes. it seems to be all around you, filling your surroundings all the time, just that we often do not notice. just like oxygen, happiness blends in with your life, too well that you don't notice until you need it. without it, you will not be able to go on with life. and the fact that you are still able to wake up every morning and do everything like you can, means happiness is still in the air.
happiness is not seen with your eyes, but felt with your heart. because sometimes, what you see might not always be true, because there are too many words left unsaid, and too many things we can't control. love and affection for someone might not be shown explicitly all the time, but you can feel it with your heart if it's there. the things you do for the people you love, the small small things, from tucking a kid to sleep, to going to all lengths to help someone.
if all you want is to be happy, love your life the way it is. most of us are not "happy" because we want to be happier than others, which is impossible, because we always tend to feel inferior when comparing lives to others, thinking that other people always has it better.

-adapted and translated from the book :D

btw, was almost gonna cry at some point, and i smiled like a retard when i was reading the sweet and cute stuff ahaha.

goodbye lullaby, pretty please, fly to singapore alreadyyyy :D

Saturday, March 1212.3.11

gonna write something similar to yesterday again, hah. feeling so sentimental these days.

These disasters going on now in the world take lives of people's loved ones away, and make their lives different for the rest of their lifetime. So if you don't treasure the people you love now, one day when disaster strikes you, you will regret for not treating them like treasure, not grabbing every opportunity to be with them. ♥

-My facebook status that I wrote myself :D

in japan, they are suffering from the earthquake and tsunami now. this is not natural, as earth is not right anymore. it's sick cause humans did too many selfish things. karma, definitely comes back around. it's sad though, the disaster that struck japan, and we gotta pray and hope families would not be broken up or at least not too much. and those who were unlucky and could not escape the fate, rip to them, and hopefully their loved ones wouldn't be too devastated and stuff.

this earthquake, it takes lives of people's loved ones away. on 10th march, these people might have had a quarrel with their best friend, parent, sibling,other half(lol sounds cheesy). might have been in love with someone for years but never dared to confess. might have always had a dream they had a passion for but never pursued. might have wanted to meet up with their friend/family that they have not seen for a long time. and more might have's. on that day, they wouldn't have known tomorrow would be the day they lose their chance to do all this even if they wanted to. and if they had tried their best to make use of everyday and live it to the fullest, they wouldn't have so many regrets. especially towards their beloved family and friends.

so cherish all of them, the people who are a part of you. love them, care for them, comfort them, understand them, be with them, talk to them, wait up for them, belong with them. after a quarrel, don't give each other silent treatment. iron things out and make up again. don't forget each other, always remember to keep in touch with them even if you might not see them everyday. don't make each other cry. other than tears of happiness, and tears when they are too moved by you. and the list goes on. just cherish them like a priceless treasure.

i saw sidhanth's status and he said that singapore will suffer from indonesia's earthquake, when extreme pressure that's building up under sumatra and padang is released, indonesia's gonna suffer from an earthquake with a magnitude of more than 10. and since we all know how close singapore is to indonesia, as our air quality has been affected by the burning in sumatra many times, as well as how the earthquakes over at sumatra always causes singapore to experience tremors, it means when indonesia experiences that earthquake, we are not gonna have small tremors only. a earthquake of magnitude 10 could probably cause tremors of magnitude 6-7. and it's predicted to happen anytime from now to the next 100 years.

anytime.so how could you afford to hate on people.you gotta grab each and every opportunity to be with them and treasure them everyday like it's your last day. cause it might just be. life is short, too short to be anything but happy. so please, we gotta have more gatherings, for both mum's and dad's side, (especially dad's side since we all seem to go on separate ways) and we gotta be with all the friends that mean something to us as much as we can. love, is what makes the world go round. so don't stop loving :D

yeah okay done with my super sentimental post. btw goodbye lullaby rocks ttm !

i wanna buy the album so bad, but i don't think it's in singapore yet ):

all the songs in the album :

Black Star
What The Hell
Push
Wish You Were Here
Smile
Stop Standing There
I Love You
Everybody Hurts
Not Enough
4 Real
Darlin
Remember When
Goodbye
Alice (extended version)

all the songs here are awesome ttm. and i think stop standing there suits my post today. seize the moment, don't waste anymore time, and just do it. many of the songs are written way earlier during avril's teens, and they are all really personal, except for what the hell. i love all the songs. black star is short, but it's quite nice still. goodbye's beginning is kinda scary like alice, but i like it all the same. the longest track is alice (extended version), it's like 5 mins :O i think i like stop standing there and push the most. :D but again every song here rocks. best album, seriously.

♥

Friday, March 1111.3.11

before it's too late ♥

japan, struck with a 8.9 earthquake; yunnan, struck with earthquake too. Japan, Russia, Marcus Island and the Northern Marianas, given tsunami warnings. many other countries like guam, taiwan, philippines, indonesia and hawaii were issued a tsunami watch.

it's so saddening, how they needa face natural disaster. this year seem to really not be going that well. but let's hope all the people who are affected will always believe in life, and live on even if they lost their loved ones.

this is the reason why, you should always treasure what you have everyday. to me, i think you don't only treasure when you know you will lose it one day. you treasure because it's a treasure to you. something special, something important. when you wake up, be happy cause you lived one more day, with your loved ones all around you. and you are all well and okay.

so let us cherish all the people we love and place them close to our hearts. don't wait until you have lost them to simply regret over so much. starting from right now. i love my parents, my cousins (that i'm close to), my relatives&grandparents, my true and awesome friends, the teachers that made a difference to me, and the people that i don't know who have once helped me and left a deep impression of them on me.

btw please, see you gotta treasure people, so meet up tomorrow pretty please with a cherry on top ? if not next time you don't get to see me le then how ? must seize the moment ! carpe diem :D

Sunday, March 66.3.11

this is me praying that, this was the very first page, not where the story line ends;♥

yesterday is rochele's birthday ! :D

okay let's write a long long long dedication for her before we proceed to how awesome the day is.

so,

hi angelsister♥,

happy 14th to you ! i love you to no core okay. xD and i treasure how close we still are after primary school, and how far we have come as best friends/sisters (: it's something that is always on my mind everyday. we gotta be best friends forever no matter how difficult it is okay ? i like how you make my life so much prettier, unlike me xD, and turn my frown upside down at times when i'm upset. you mean too much. i hope you know it, and feel the same way. thanks okay. no words can really express how i feel really. thanks for today, i had the time of my life. turned my day around seriously. and i love your friends too. they are awesome max, but you are awesome-r haha . i feel like crying now. i want atikah's birthday to come faster so we can meet up again ! and can we celebrate mine too ? haha, i'm like asking people to celebrate birthday for me, so thick-skinned sia. aiya who cares. 1 of 6 angels yeah. thanks for the care, concern, love, protection and thanks for just being there. i feel like crying now. so emotional now, cause i know we are all not going to see each other too soon. but i hope we can still.

infinitylove&hugs♥,

MEIHUI.

okay, on with the day !

after choir, chiong-ed to white sands, met up with natalie. (:

went to see cakes, then bryan popped out from behind, and we started choosing cake.

bought blackforest in the end, (y) :D

so after that, we went to changi village to find rochele.

went to food centre for drinks, then headed to beach park.

damn chio okay. the sea is like so pretty, and the environment is like, stunning nature.

and natalie was like, this is so australia.

spammed pictures like crazy, even though i look unglam in most of them :P

anddd, found a damn autumn-ish leaf/flower la.

shall post if i have the time or feel like. x)

had funnnn max there. was making rochele's card on the spot with the leaf/flower :D

then sang happy birthday song :D

ate birthday cake, then headed to nex (Y)

natalie left though, she can't make it at night, which is like boo (N)

but at least there's atikah yay !

met up with her at serangoon bus stop there, was damn apologetic cause she waited for us for like 1h and got scolded by her parents too.

but anyw, we met up and went into nex. spent 30 mins deciding on where to eat.

ate at mad jack in the end :D

quite nice ley, the food there. i like.

but quite ex :X

after that, went to cotton on cause rochele was like saying it since idk when xD

and then, went to ntuc to buy atikah's pepsi and went home.

realised bryan just lives opposite me, which is like, kinda cool ?

haha. reached home, damn tired, but still on com until 12 like that.

ironic lor. finally finished up the post which was started yesterday.

i love & miss yesterday to no core.

hope can meet up with rochele,atikah,natalie and bryan asap !

looking forward to atikah's birthday sia ♥

Friday, February 2525.2.11

tgif :D

xcountry + lunch + outing :D

xcountry- ran with kaiyun and meiling, was with fiona and siyun most of the time too. quite cool how we didn't stop much. compared to last year (: thanks to kaiyun's motivation, and meiling's too :D i was like running songs through my head/ singing softly to motivate myself xD yay so after we reached the finishing point just hanged around. 100plus(y). chiewling and ngning win again :D threecheers for them heh . and threecheers for the rest of the girls and guys too, they did their best alr (: sooo, fastforward to after we are dismissed. took class photo together and everyone looked like they were forced to take, which probably is true :X oops.

lunch-after half an hour or so of delay for some reasons, went with charlene,meiling,chiewling,kaiyun and yixuan to food village to eat :D saw wutong, and also reiyin,dillon and jacqueline. shared carrot cake together and ate duck rice hee. left after that and wandered around and wasted tons of time trying to get out. in the end, chiewling,kaiyun and yixuan took taxi to paya lebar. me,charlene,meiling took my dad's taxi to parkway parade then we bus-ed to nex on our own.

outing-went to cinema to check out the movies first, decided to watch homecoming in the end. was going to buy the tickets when jianing,fiona,siyun,minhui and jolene came up to us . hah, so we went to same place. but they watching i am number four so bye (: went in to the theatre, saw a few advertisements for other movies, which are like damn funny too. anyw, from movie start to end i just laughed throughout practically because it's like damn crappy but funny la. alot of dumb scenes which just made me burst out laughing, but i like. plus behind all the jokes it's quite meaningful. at some point i almost wanted to cry. actually it emphasizes alot on values, and your roots. like family and stuff. which is meaningful. the behindthescenes was seriously rofl. andand, meiling's laughter makes me laugh more, like, wkr. :D after movie, went into random shops and looked around. includes comics connection, sparkling stars and aries. don't remember others. then went to eat dinner, and went back. ilovethisoutingmaxxx!

todayrocks :D

Thursday, February 2424.2.11

nolifeeeee.

so busy sia.

so much homework; so little time.

2 days w/o com, kinda miracle.

1 week never blog, quite un-me.

i think starting next week i won't go on fb/youtube at all le.

no life-r sia. needa mug for schoolwork, gotta mug harder for choir too.

but it's okay i guess. (:

positive,yes.

SMILE ! :D

Thursday, February 1717.2.11

milodinowithminim&msftw ! xD

today is awesome. (Y)

mrt-ed home with kaiyun after pw, bought a bottle of mini m&ms at lrt :D

went home, ate ferrero rocher, and made milo dinosaur which is super perfect ahahaha. with mini m&ms.

finished up biji and geog. did maths too.

so happy today. really.

ifoundmyselfagain.idon'teverwannaloseme.please.

Wednesday, February 1616.2.11

yesterday got blue-yellow braces :D

no time to blog noww.

blog again maybe..tomorrow ? :X

Monday, February 1414.2.11

imma happy kid today :D

firstly, finally got to give fiona her calendar.

secondly, lessons were quite cool today.

thirdly, 2bn was the only sec2 class that won the video contest within lower sec of school.

fourthly, i got to get out of assembly to take my geog retest.

fifthly, i bought cheese fries and sausage to eat on the way home.

sixthly, i saw jiaxuan and yanni @ payalebar mrt.

seventhly, i saw dillon and jiayang @each a cup outside white sands.

eighthly, journey back home i didn't emo/fall asleep.

ninthly, i did fow when i reached home instead of slacking.

tenthly, today is kinda lax, which rids monday blues !

(L)

missedbeingthatdumbdumbgirlthatmotivatesherselftoalwaysstriveforthebest.

Friday, February 1111.2.11

finally free, period.

there's chinese and geog left, but is not that bad, at least a bit free-er :D

anyw, not sure what i can say, let's just say these few days i very mood swing.

suddenly cheerful, suddenly wistful.

anyw, updates !

finally saw yunshan after 2 months, lol. but didn't say hi cause i don't think she remember me :/

and i guess i got someone back into my life, which is the reason why i mood swing.

but yes i still like the fact that we could talk like we always do. :D

wanna meet up asap siah. and don't want also. cause height difference makes me zibei. D: and looks difference also :X

wanna know who stalk me know liao ;D LOL.

not much to say i guess, other than these.

but btw my tests all sure gg le, but geog and chinese still got hope la, for now. :P

laughter, smiles, fun, love ♥

Saturday, February 55.2.11

chinesenewyear !

this year was really super tiring and i don't know why, but all the same, awesome :D

chu1yi1 :

went to greataunts' and greatuncles' houses as usual (: really, when we were halfway through we were already like super tired, but quite fun anyw. camwhored with cousin's itouch. okay not really. i only took a few photos, my two cousins took the most ahahaha . all on fb, so i lazy upload. if you stalk me, teehee you will see all our retarded faces xD especially mine :P played with the kids at fourth greataunt's house. damn cute sia. there's two siblings , one girl and one boy. their eyes are like so adorable (Y) and the sounds the girl makes is like so sweet cannnn . (L) ate alot of goodies of course, bet i'm gonna gain weight :X ate buffet as usual at third greataunt's house, awesomeee (: seaweed chicken, chicken wings & nuggets, dumplings, beehoon, fried rice, and so on (Y) went home around 4+, then endsss. got 11 angpows, which is actually quite little compared to last year i guess, but whatever (:

chu1er4 :

again, as usual, almost the whole day is always spent at my grandma's house cause it's always people coming instead of us going for chu1er4 . then after everyone left then we will go to uncles' houses then mine teehee x) when we were at grandma's house seriously we were all dead bored cause there's nothing to do. then we all sianfaced. but also got take alot of photos la. again, refer to fb. hilarious photos ;D ate dinner before going to houses. went to uncle's house, saw my cousin's kids so cuteee ahaha :D issac&joshua♥ stayed there for a while, watched tv and laughed at my cousins and the kids yay. went to another uncle's house lol. issac&joshua went too. they were looking at the terrapin in the house, and feeding it with cabbage and turtle food. then we started talking random random stuff. then later one of my cousins asked issac what's his full name, then he said issac tam ming xuan. then so funny la. we were all like tam (sounds like) thumb, so my cousin (audrey) taught him to do this : when people asks his name he would say issac tam (thumb) and when he says tam he would put his thumb(s) out. is damn cute and funny. again the video is on fb, this is so must-watch. but don't know if it's view-able. so we keep saying issac what's your name, and he would say issac tam with his thumb(s) out, and we would practically be rofl-ing. and he was like looking at us and asking why it was so funny. i bet if he showed it to his dad we would be blacklisted for life.thennn my house. issac&joshua never go D: cause his grandparents, who are my uncle and aunt, are tired alr, so they went home. then the rest came, and we chatted and stuff. still, i laughed like crazy. talking with my cousins and my aunt. so funny la. cause we keep teasing each other. laugh like siao. i love yesterday luhhhh ♥

was doing home video today, and read through alot of nice nice quotes :D

let's put one here in memory of these two days of cny :

in time of test, family is best ♥

so true.

chinesenewyear, just once a year. you have lots and lots of fun. you relive memories. i did. being able to be with cousins that i don't see everyday really it's awesome ttm. but it's only mum's side. seriously i don't even care about the awkwardness that will be in between all the people i know at dad's side but i just wanna see them again. it's so long i'm so afraid one day if we ever walk past each other we might not even recognise each other. please, don't let that happen.

Tuesday, February 11.2.11

6-2'09 & mts , forever & ever ; ♥

6-2'09 is not my ex-class. is my primary school class. will always be my class . it will always be a place where i belong . it will always be somewhere we are more than just 41 people . we create miracles when we all work hard together . we love our form teacher more than any teacher in the world . she's part of us , part of our class . always . a teacher, a friend . she's the best. 6-2 is a place i know . is something we can feel with both eyes closed . mts is not my ex-school . is my primary school . will always be my school . it will always be a place i know . it will always be somewhere that holds memories i will never forget . i know every inch of the place . i love the canteen and the food there . it's like something to be proud of- because we rock . the world . we had miss fong . we had mr wee . we had the general office staff . we had the best teachers . we had the cutest students . we had values .

supposedly today should be cny performance , but i'm like focusing on mdm ng's&jinkai's birthday. lost my phone. sad like idk. but well what's done is done. kinda pulled me down initially, but cheered up with the help of prez, and of course guy seniors since they are always so funny. singing helps too. cny performance sucked again. all av's fault . hate them. make the sec4s leave with regret.

anyw. after that tried to find kaiyun they all without a phone which thankfully i did manage to . discussed briefly about projects , ate snacks while doing that (Y) . had lots of fun then too. went home together, and i rushed out jk's present and played com for a while . ate lunch while doing that.

after that, chiong-ed to prime mart there to meet up w rochele, went into school together with her. saw kenny at the gate. signed the papers, and went to find mdm ng and the rest. chatted and stuff, really really having the time of my life. waited for our big-shot birthday guy till around 5+, and yay i finally got my *ahem* early birthday present :D nah i'm just joking. at least he did give it to me. i seriously love it okay. the rubber band so cool la seriously. damn awesomeeeeee. thanks like a million and more for the (belated) birthday present jk :D and i gave him his viva la vida video burned in cd. hope it's nice lol.

chatted for awhile, then we sang birthday song for our two birthday peeps ! which is mdm ng and jinkai yay ! lol . cut the cakes and ate it, w/o a spoon bleh. all tried to bite from plate. unglam haha. kenny licked the plastic wrap. lololols. stayed around awhile more, talked about school stuff w jk FACE-TO-FACE :O i mean like we really rarely get a chance to even talk face-to-face luh. and caught up with others too, like we didn't do enough just now though heh :P mdm ng going out w her daughters later, so it's time to go. went out together, and seriously, so happy. so nice to be together again. took bus home together w sq, waited bus w olenka, bought kitkat, and went home. ate dinner, bathed, and here i am.

really, miss mtsco'06-09 so much. miss mts2-2'05-6-2'09 so much. miss ecogarden. miss science labs. miss art rooms. miss the colourful staircases. miss the pretty toilets. miss the yummilicious canteen food. miss the parade square. miss the library. miss the basketball court. miss the fitness corner. miss the school hall. miss the SEED room. miss buddy reading. miss the general office area. miss the back gate area. miss the hopscotch. miss the field. miss the corridors. miss everything. too much. more than all this, i miss how much simpler life was then. complicated, but still way much simpler than now. where i was a better girl.

hello world (L)

Monday, January 3131.1.11

yesterday was kinda awesome.

went to bedok that is my grandma's and cousin's house . tried my new year dress which my aunt made for me teehee . looks so.. french . kinda retro . or maybe a teeny bit of vintage . but quite nice la (Y) .

so around 4 or so we walked to bedok interchange to buy new year shoes :D i bought a pair of slip-on heels lol. at least it's not the kind of stiletto type, i will fall wearing that :X and it's rare for me to buy heels seriously, i don't wear them .and to match my dress it's kinda vintage too. like polka dots and ribbons kinda thing . material . cousin bought strap heels which is not stiletto type also. material's around the same for the heel part . quite nice too, i like (Y)

went to ntuc to buy cny goodies also . stuff like kueh bangkit or whatever you spell it la okay i love it ttmxzc (L) . and ferrero rocher hah :D steamboat ingredients, blah . too bad i don't get to eat it D: nehmind i have my own too (: went to eat dinner at hawker centre , bought takeaways for those at home, and took my dad's taxi back since he was already nearby at blk 18. so yeah he waited while we got ready to leave and stuff. came back and got homework done and i went to sleep .

today is not bad also (:

~~raining~~ pouring damn heavily in the morning, thank god i have my dad (:

have to walk in, but of course it's nothing compared to dakota mrt to back gate .

reached there super early , didn't really see anyone except seeing yifan and liho walking afterwards. lol yifan and liho. sounds so no link. bought a bun to eat and started on xiaolianbi corrections.

and fiona, then meiling and kaiyun also came. then charlene. haha.

went up to the classroom and then waited for frc to start. ended, chenlaoshi haven't come in, and everyone chiong-ing either corrections or tingxie .

*fastforwards*

assembly. grouping again. seriously irritating. home video=grouping . service learning=grouping. why can't they just group us up randomly like miss tan does for chem ? for the first time i like her for that.everyone likes to get into their own cliques and seriously, stick, with people who are their "best friends" . then situations with too many or too little people in a group will occur. and

everyone seems to be with almost the same people. don't you even get sick of working with the same people ? this clique thing , it's so irritating . they are not your only friends, the people you usually group with . you can always go with others. and you make people feel left out. can you imagine those who are without a clique ? well you happily group together like that, there are bound to be odd numbers and people will have no groups. then they will feel so small because they might think no one wants them . or those who are separated into two separate groups cause of your way of arrangement . they can't be with who they want either .

lol enough of my rant . assembly ends, and i went nex with meiling. spent all our time in popular. bought sticker :D and meiling bought ciyushouce and book wrap. paid, she walked me to mrt, and we parted ways. i went home, ate dinner, and tada i'm here. rights. here i end. bye world (:

Saturday, January 2929.1.11

so tired now.

stupid doctor. stupid diagnosis. stupid medicine.

29.1.11

yay :D

today sectional kinda weird, but then i like the rest of choir practice :D got to interact more with juniors, and actually they are quite cute haha . i like augusta yay (Y) my partner haha i 'adopt' her for pairing up ;) but she so tall sia. taller than me ._. and she quite pretty also lol. seriously self-esteem bruised. but nevermind. she in alto also, but alto2. hope to get to know the rest of my section juniors and maybe soprano ones too ! there's a guy who got into sop2 lol. like start of last year like that. he looks cute, but well he might be evil :P now choir like so many people. maybe 70 le :O but once sec4 leaves sure shrink again. and guys will look very weird cause all the sec4s are gone and basically i don't see familiar faces at all lol. girls will have loads of people missing too. wilda,ruihan,denise,bella,hsinmin,meihui,clara etc. from altos, and yunshi,jesslyn,sherrie,weishan,keziah,nianwei,prc scholars etc. from sopranos. eee i don't like. then every practice will be like today's sectional. so weird. D:

i realised i have been talking about choir alot. bleh.

homework haven't start yet ley. gonna start later.

andandand, hope my cough goes away asapasap ! :D

When you know you're going to lose something/someone and you don't know whether to let go first before it hurts too much, or to make the best of what's left before it's gone.

Friday, January 2828.1.11

today is quite cool.

choir practice = awesome.

sec1s came alr,they like all quite tall ley. *self-esteem got bruised*

lols.

there's a girl called miaomiao from 1LY , she should be around 14 or 15.

the guys laugh at her name, then she retort back at them .

but she know them la. but still, seriously i would never be able to do that.

whatever okay :X

after warmups, costume check and their self-intro, we went down to grand audi for cny rehearsal.

saw chenlaoshi there haha :D

waited for our turn to go on stage, and my eyes were already drooping. seriously, i'm god damn tired after countless coughing fits. and sleepless nights cause of coughing . :X

when it was our turn, i kinda lit up and was a little more energetic. sang through bai4fang3chun1tian1 and chun1tian1li3, practised moving backwards without looking to make space for teachers. rehearsed once more, and we are done. fast right ? when mr loh said we can go now, i'm like, so early ? then i look at my watch and i went, omg,it's 6 alr ? so freaking fast la. didn't even do much.

walked to dakota mrt with lynn and ruihan, and took mrt w ruihan and chatted the whole way until she alighted ;D

went to white sands and ate dinner there, which is minced pork porridge ._. since i seriously don't dare to risk eating foods that i shouldn't eat and lose my voice completely, and have more coughing fits. so yeah. after that took bus home.

omg this is super funny. before the bus went off, wingkit came on the bus. i didn't realise until i looked in front, then i saw him, and he saw me. then his face is damn priceless. like surprise plus shock plus awkwardness. before he saw me, he was walking up the aisle, then when he saw me he immediately spun and went back to the front. and i was like thinking : do i look like a ghost to you ? -.- cause it's like all the seats filled except the one beside me lol. later when more people alighted and there are more seats, he came up and then sat at the seat that was across the aisle from mine. then i just ignore him haha. pretend i never see him :P then later when the person sitting next to him alighted, he went to the back and i'm like thinking again : seriously, is it so bad to be even near me ? makes the situation so awkward .

kaykay whatever. i alight and home sweet home. :D i realise i say alot of whatevers in this post . :P and alot of :P's too lol .

endofpost ! (:

Thursday, January 2727.1.11

just can't stand it. once i listen to you raise me up, it immediately reminds me of the guys singing during confession time. on that day, the graduation party.

so well i will do a confession for all the sec3-4 seniors this year that i am familiar with, hopefully they won't see it cause i would get so shy heh, but whatever. none of them knows my blog link xD

let's start from sec3s.
tiffany: you're a super awesome senior who's chio,friendly,caring,and so on. you make up for my blur ways . you reassured me when i was really upset when i messed up during competition . you made milo for me . thanks alot during the time in hk when you were there. :D
debra: you're really friendly & nice :D thanks for the time in hk too, the photos also hah .you're really nice to talk to
jiahui: thanks for the time in hk when we went as a group together. i like the photos we took . and thanks for sorting the rooming stuff for me , sorta haha :D
manling: we aren't really close but thanks for saying that my drawing is nice lols , and i think we talk a bit more recently (:
zhengyi: you are a cute senior who's hyper . i like the time when debra, you and me walked to school when we saw one another at mrt . (:
yanhui: thanks for guiding me along when i first came into choir as a sop2, and you're a super friendly and cool senior too . i so envy your artistic talent :D
jiamin: cute and friendly senior yeah . i like how you are so original . and your art is good too , so envious siahhhh :D
faye: yeah i know you're transferred outta school alr, but you're a nice senior too.i like the time in camp and audition :D
rest of sec3 seniors that are not mentioned : actually i think only a few, but anyw, it's not that you're not awesome, it's just that i'm not sociable enough to really know you in any way. in here should be shiuyee,deniseteo,and a few more others maybe ? thanksthanksthanks okay, for anything that you might have done in this 1 year plus i'm here :D
sec4s :
yunshi: you are a hyper,friendly,caring,cool,fun,amazing,awesome,funny senior. you notice when i'm alone. you hug me randomly once when i saw you in popular. you make me feel loved. you should have come for hk, it would have been so much more fun with you around. :D
wilda: you are hyper,friendly,caring,cool,fun,amazing,awesome and funny too. you notice when i'm alone too. you make me feel loved too. of course, you should have come for hk too, it would have been so much more fun with you around. almost same as yunshi lol :D
ruihan: you are cool,friendly,caring,fun,amazing and awesome okayyy. talking to you is like talking to a friend. you are so easy to be with. you give me hope . thanks :D
denise: you are the best president ever . you motivate us. you keep us going on. you inject discipline into the choir. you are humourous. you set by example. you are fun to be around. you are hyper and all spazz. thanks so much for everything you have done :D
bella: thanks for being an awesome sl. for teaching us notes patiently. for trying to get everything right. for encouraging us to go on. for giving us a break when we got our part right.how you are fun to be around too :D
meihui: haha, same name. but very different uh. since you so chio and awesome . friendly and cute too haha :D
hsinmin: i like the way you always smile at me when you see me. you are so chio, cool and fun to be around too :D
jesslyn: you're friendly, chio and fun. i like that time when i saw you at mrt. i like your hyper-ness and random-ness :D
rest of sec4 seniors : okay this is alot okay, but again you're all really awesome too , but me being me will always be passive. i think in here should have sherrie,weishan,keziah,some of the prc scholars like qini etc. , and all the guys like ernest,yifan,kyle,walter,joseph,mengyue,milton and so on ? thanks so much for anything you have done , any little thing in these 1 year plus i have been in choir. sherrie,thanks for being ex-sl when i was in soprano actually. the guys mainly thanks for the laughter hahahahaha . but i will always remember that time when i got separated from claudia,gwyneth and isabel and i found my way to the next venue in disneyland by myself and saw all of you there alr. and yifan pranked on me saying ernest calling me and i walked over then ernest say he lie derh then i walk away again. later yifan say vp calling me , then for consecutively a few times i keep ignoring until don't know third or fourth time then go over, but this time is real. -.- feel like a retard lor. but it's funny. :D

i will miss the sec4s so much . each and every one of them . 3 more months, and they would stop coming for cca.around 9 more months, and they graduate. i know they might be coming on a last trip with us at the end of the year. but it's not enough. never.

27.1.11

TODAY=AWESOME ! :D

english and history was okay !
recess is awesome !
maths is awesome too !
finally got to buy acc textbook !
NO ELIT !
NOT MUCH HOMEWORK YAY ! :D

heeeeeeeeee. list done ! xD

Monday, January 2424.1.11

gosh my sore throat getting worse.

now throat so painful D:

and might have fever anytime.

NOOO.

i wann go choir practice de. i can't afford to miss a single practice now.

Sunday, January 2323.1.11

sian max.

nooooo. i think i having sore throat sia.

feeling kinda sick now le seriously.

hate sore throat ttm can.

i can still remember that time when i totally lost my voice.

and i sound like a totally different person.

and when i cough every minute.

and when i cough and my heads throbs hard with the headache i have cause of fever omg.

geez.

there's school tmr.

i hate school.i hate homework.D:

nothing much today.bought red top for cny performance.

not really nice,but well whatever.

hope i don't bring down anyone's moods.but really damn sian from start of school till now.

Saturday, January 2222.1.11

don't really feel like blogging.

aunt came back from seattle.

i'm so tired right now.

not sick, but feel like collapsing.

only slept 7 hours in these two days added up together.

i can even fall asleep while standing.

okay i should not dampen other people's moods.

so aunt bought blueberry dark chocolate back which is like (Y)

today's choir practice is damn awesome :D

i-l-o-v-e-c-h-o-i-r ♥

cause i was so tired,i missed the stop when i was taking bus since i fell asleep :O
today is not awesome.

but well, let's try to be positive .

what the hell by avril lavigne ROCKS !

even though the lyrics sounds whore-ish,but it isn't.

can tell it's not really personal and it's just an outburst of feelings that is hidden.

love the tune.love part of the lyrics.makes me feel better in a way.

believe,please.

Wednesday, January 1919.1.11

i am sam ? (:

lazy to describe but anyw, the movie was awesome.

inspirational, meaningful, touching, sweet, cute, blah. just amazing.

and the part where the teacher skipped is like just a bit of kissing and hugging ? -.-

i bet if i watched until that part i will break and cry.

okay whatever.

so since this movie is like all inspirational and meaningful and stuff.

shall write some meaningful stuff again haha. or maybe it's just the way many people feel in this whole world.

when you're upset, when you suffer from setbacks, you get emotional . you start wondering why some people's lives seem so much better than yours, like it's all smooth sailing, but yours, is like a path full of obstacles. maybe, just maybe, some people's lives may seem perfect, but they are not what it seems like. they might have a lot you don't have, but you have a lot they do not have also. try not to wallow in self-pity. treasure every single thing you have. it's not easy especially during the period of time when you're down. but once you got over the depression from the setback, remember this : you are alive and healthy now, while many others are maybe disabled or struck with diseases. you probably have a complete family, while many others are broken and fragmented. you have proper clothes to wear, enough food to eat, nice home to live, while many others are wearing torn and old clothes, suffering from famine, and living on the streets. you are way luckier than all these people. all these setbacks in life, it would only make you stronger. smile and welcome them with wide arms. sometimes when you feel like crying, smile. keep smiling. let the happiness flood through you. and the last thing is, you're not alone. Millions and millions of people are probahly having situations like yours or even worse.

right,that's all i guess,loveyataggers :D