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Monday, November 99.11.09

184 post :(

realised that im actually so drained that i have to put off learning how to be positive.

drained of thoughts of you.

drained of loving you.

drained of trying to forget you but to no avail.

drained of being hurt by countless stabs in my heart.

drained of evrth tht took place recently.

took the personality profile quiz in fb just nw.

result was:Charming - Practical - Amusing

Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.

but if thts the case...

i always get the feeling frm others(nt bestfrens of cuz)tht im very left out.

center of attraction?more like corner of attraction.

and i wont be loving unrequitedly.

you are draining all of me.

i know it cant be forced,but imagine the scene.

do you think u'll be so sensitive to try and say in such a way tht it isnt so hurting?

NO.you wouldnt.

im so glad that i havent confessed.and i decided nt to of cuz.

at first i was contemplating to give you sth for yr bday,but nw i decided i dont want to.

because if you will reject my confession,why would you accept my gift?

u'll reject and all my money,time and efforts would have gone down the drain.

and this will be more hurting than wht you thought to be.

and more hurting than wht happened on my bday.

once bitten,twice shy and so i dont want to be stupider when im ald.

to make myself hurt again.

she was saying:when she heard this frm you,she was so...

"how could you?"

but then i dont expect you to accept, i said.

"3 years 10 months 2 days leh!"

if time is a measurement for love,why dont you fall in love with me,say, this time of last year?

an almost-3-year unrequited love is also very long right?

but R-E-J-E-C-T.isnt the word for you.

because you cant be more insensitive and cant be more direct.just like ******.

看看身边多少知己，想想家人给的关心 is WAY better than looking at how many scars re left behind by yr seemingly insignificant words and actions,gazing at you,and thinking about those days 3 years 10 months back.you wont rmb,but i do.

if i could help it,i wont think abt it,wont be looking.

but i cant.if i can,i would have forgotten you and it will call for a mini celebration.

loving you was my biggest mistake and regret of my life.

because of the stabs i get.

but i nv regretted one thing:

sharing those days with you.

they were wonderful,perfect,happy,and simple.

but they re moments that had passed.and will nv return.

cry.cried.crying.

cried to sleep.

cried in front of my com.

cried in bathroom.

cried in classroom.

ultimately,it's all because of you.

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