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Tuesday, November 1010.11.09

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pondered over ytd's super emo post and whtever tht took place over the 3 years,10 months and 3 days.

i realised you arent really the ultimate reason why i cried.

i was the ultimate reason why i cried.

i cried because i wasnt strong enough.

i cried because i have no confidence in myself.

i cried because i feel like im such a sucker,except the fact that you suck more.

after being drained for so long and still alive,maybe im ald accustomed to being drained?

since i am,i dont see the point crying over being drained.

unless i wanna jump off the building or any other ways tht could be used to commit suicide one day,which is sth i'll nv do because i know theres still ppl who love me,then i can just cry.

if i dont,i wont let myself cry for you anymore,cry because i felt like a sucker,because no matter what,life still has to go on.even after im completely drained of energy.i will just recharge myself.

looks like it isnt easy for one to forget someone he or she loves.

that is why i dont really agree with the statement,"Time heals all wounds."

and even if it does heal the wound,there's still a scar left behind,and it can never be erased.

scars are also reminders that play flashbacks of the unhappy past memories.

so the wound will never heal,wht done will never be undone.

anw,wht you did wasn't alot either.

if you ask,it is just a lot of minor insignificant words and actions added up altogether which is simply just a little mean and rude,and nth else.

it is nth to get upset and hurt about actually.

but i just feel hurt.

my newest bestie can empathise with tht.

and i was once happy,thts all.

those days were sth i shld forget.

maybe after forgetting those days,i could forget you.

but this is the key:i cling onto them,im attached to them.

but i'll try.i'll work hard together with bestie to strive for our goals.

i really need someone who could care for me and never make me feel left out.but who could and who would?

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