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Monday, January 1818.1.10

maybe i should self-delude.probably that might keep me from going insane,which i actually am alrdy.

cause i know im really killing myself like that-not in the sense like you,trying to take one knife and stab yourself,but as in cause im like in so much pain every day,that it feels like dying.if i self-delude myself into believing that im gonna be happy,i will be strong,my problems are over,i got over evrth,i will be okay from now on,i would probably feel better right?

yet,it doesnt really helps.there are too many flaws,too many scars in me i need to hide,i need to delude myself from in me,about me.evrth sucks.and i suck at evrth.it only dawned on me today that i lost all of my fortes.im not as good at my cl and el.im no longer as hardworking as before.im not the active participant in class alrdy.im not one of the ppl who hands in good work.i suck alrdy,and now more.self-deluding wouldnt work le.evrth in me will go.and whats left of me will be the world's biggest sucker.i hate this.

tdy was choir audition.

it must have been one of the best times ive spent in chung cheng.

now i understand jacelyn saying that choir's fun.

anyway,other ppl were auditioning first,so we were like singing along also to the range tune.

then we were like telling ghost stories to one another,chatting about some other things too.

and then when audition also quite fun.

testing the range of the keys we can reach.
go higher first.

la la la la la la la la la la la la la la~

((:

i must have reached the maximum of the singing range,cause we changed to the lower one after that.

la la la la la la la la la la la la la la~

then finished le,i was asked if i could sing along to some piano keys.

then i sang along to like i think five times.

then ended.got soprano 2.

after that we waited for each other,went home together.

love this 3.5hrs,it cant be better!

liyi i guessed you just saved some money up..

my fren said i can really reach real high notes.but that still doesnt make me any less of a sucker.

its all too late.ive been waiting for the day of breakdown to come.how come it hasnt yet?

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